A lonely woman

 

A lonely woman sits in misery

Waiting for the good time to come

Waiting for her love to come home

Waiting for the love that everyone else seems to have

Waiting him to understand her

Waiting for him to dearly love her

Forever unlucky and unloved

Forever abandoned and rejected

Doomed and born to be left alone

Often she dreamed of a loving home

Happy home full of laughter

Full of warm and love

But its just a dream

Reality is harsh and hurting

Loneliness runs deep

Misery always follows

Rejected and abandoned

Old worn out goods

To be thrown away

After its usability expired

Sometimes she thinks

Maybe she was born

To be laughed at

To be the biggest joke on earth

To be forever miserable

Always begging for love

She prayed for death to come

Yet even death doesn’t want her

She prayed for an accident

An instant death without pain

Hoping death would bring her

The much awaited peace

The long awaited joy

She cry to herself alone

She tried to think of ways

To make herself lovable

Acceptable, Presentable

Adorable

She rack her brain day and night

Of what when wrong

Why she was always abandoned

Left alone and rejected by everyone

Every moment of her life

She prayed for love

She prayed for joy

She prayed for companionship

She prayed for happiness

She prayed for peace

She tried to find happiness and love

In every Holy Book

In every human face

But she find nothing

A lonely abandoned woman

A despised woman

She was named a freak

Annoying, disgusting

Jealous, Irritating, hurtful

She’s frighten and lonely

She’s miserable and helpless

She’s frighten to voice her opinion

She feel valueless

She feels useless

She feels empty all the time

She walked on earth for 38 years

And she have never  met anyone

Who really loved and cared

Some were lucky to meet

Someone who love them enough

To bring them out of misery

But she is that unlucky one

She had the tag of ”Abandoned Me”

tied on her forehead.

All she wants now is a peaceful death

She hoped that after her death

She would be loved and remembered fondly.

Her hopes never die

Her dreams always alive

All the hurt will go away someday

Love will smile at her someday

Acceptance will be her friend someday

She would feel valuable and loved someday

She will feel important to someone someday

Someday maybe somewhere beyond the human lives

But someday someone will remember all the love

All the love she wasted.

Someday when she’s forever gone.

She's been praying for that someday

To come and take her home forever

To the forever happy home

The Holy books tells about

The home where tears will never fall

The home where she doesn’t

Have to beg for a single glance

For a tiny kiss

For understanding

For love

For approval

Right or wrong

Guilty or faultless

She doesn’t know

She only knows

She loves

She cares.

Expectations

Humiliations

Abandoned

Left alone

Garbage

Dumpster

A suitable

Below human

She felt everything that is vile

Worthless

Useless

But she still hopes that someday the sun will shine on her

Someday the stars will twinkle on her too

Someday the moon will smile kindly on her

Someday the rain will fall softly on her gravestone

Someday she will leave all these humiliations behind

Someday….

She hopes that, that Someday is not far away.